||[Aug. 27th, 2005|02:45 pm]
tyrp for lyfe :0
I was going to post a message here but I found out I was apparently not a member of TYRP anymore. So... I joined again to post this but I'll be leaving after that.
I know I've been a terrible Ryoma/Kaidoh-player. I'm never online and I'm just way too shy about poking any of you for RPs, besides the people I know [read: Bern]. I haven't been doing the boys any justice whatsoever, and frankly I think they're completely OOC and badly written.
So, and I'm sure you saw this coming, I'm giving them up.
I noticed a couple of posts down, Nori wanted those who were still RPing to say they were. Obviously, I only just saw that, so I don't know if I still have the boys in the first place or not, but in any case I'm just officially handing them over to you. Drop a comment in my journal [amsdia] if someone wants their old journals, and I'll give you the password. Or you could create a new journal, anything's fine by me.
I'm sorry I've been neglecting them. Hopefully whoever picks them up gives them more love. Especially since Kaidoh's now buchou of Seigaku [to which I go wtf.]
Love you all!
I always thought you were on hiatus or sth due to school.
&This is just my opinion, I don't speak for the whole RP or anything, but I'm open for you taking the charries up again if you want. For one thing, I can understand the whole 'too shy' thing because I have the same problem; which makes it v. hard for me to really ask anyone to rp with me or for me to even broach the subject with people. Hell, I haven't rped in ages &admit I've been neglecting my own characters as well due to personal reasons. [I'm bad mod, really]
I'm totally being garbled on what I'm saying, but I never saw your rendition of the characters you played as ooc or badly written. I've always believed there is no ONE TRUE WAY to play a character. It's all up to your imaginations &how you perceive them to be played as. Which is why I refuse to tell/order people to play their characters a certain way, because, really, where's the fun in getting told how to play a character?
But, you can always try again. Because, I mean, I think I've been getting better with the shy thing, er, before I started declining &getting all 'must deal with private life thingsblahblahblah.' So there's no reason why we can't help you get over the shy thing, right? I mean, we love you &this rp is like family, baby.
So. I. UUH. I HOPE I MADE SENSE WITH THIS :x
*is now terribly embarrassed*
I am on hiatus because of school. Was. Whatever. Because I do have very major exams coming up - two sets, in fact, the first of which will decide if I can take the second, and the second of which will essentially decide if I get that scholarship I'm aspiring after. And that determines if I go to university because I can't afford it otherwise and heaven knows I want to go to university. Even if I'm not entirely sure what I want to do with the rest of my life, which makes me unsure what course I should take in university.
And I'm not supposed to be writing all this here, and I apologise for my tendency to whinge instead of actually doing something [like studying]. My point was that since I'm rarely online and Ryoma's a [vaguely] important character, maybe I should just give him up. And Kaidoh doesn't get enough love from me, so...
I'm making even less sense now than I did before. >_<
*takes deep breath and tries again*
I haven't been on AIM for ages, really. I'm only really online when I'm in school, and we're blocked from downloading chat programs on those comps. I just don't think it's fair to the boys to be consigned to sitting in my brain staring at plate tectonics and wondering when they can play with the others.
I don't really want to give them up, actually, but... yeah. Something. Don't know, maybe I just don't think I'm a good enough RPer. I think.
I would love to still be able to talk to all of you when my exams are over, always assuming you lot still remember me with some semblance of fondness. And who knows, if no one's taken the boys by the time I'm done, maybe I'll pick them up again. But that'll only be next year, because my exams end 29th Nov and then I'm going overseas [no internet] to visit my grandma whom I haven't seen in... four years? Thereabouts.
If for some obscure reason you want me to keep the boys, I'll at least say here I'm open to them being modded...
I'm not ruling out coming back to TYRP eventually. I love this RP. But it's not something I can keep up with right now...
:) I'll save the charries for you then, darling ♥
[sorry it took this long for me to respond, my e-mail notifs are totally wonky ://]